Me, myself and I

Weird isn't it a topic like this, first thought of writing something again in Chinese, yet i thought of jono and melly again, so this time it's an english post..

Something is going on inside me right now, not sure whether it is the over-slacking (barely possible), homesick, sieness, or just plain having too much hormones, but i know something isn't all that right now with me, can't see my own smile on my face, can't feel the sun shinning to brighten my day, can't jolly myself over nice food to eat, and i can't now feel whatever people are feeling with my heart.

I can now, however, catch myself stuck dazing at the rain, lingering around the same emotional song for one night, doing nothing, being lazy to blog, lose my enthusiasm towards going anywhere but home.

All these syndromes, point to the one thing that seems all that blur in my mind. I miss the my shelter back in Miri, where i can have a song on, tuck myself in bed, and doze off reading books while enjoying my night. That time has passed and it definitely passed too swiftly.

My lil desperate mind is telling me that it's too much about me, myself and I, when i lost focus on the one thing that i should be grabbing in my life, my Lord, my Shepard, which when i try so hard, i get hurled back by the world once again.

It's raining now, just like how my heart has been for so long.

你最近还好吗, 公主?

不知道是不知最近时间多了,脑里开始回忆从前的许多,但是我知道昨晚的梦,不是想的太多,而是想的太深.

梦是美妙的,因为它们带出了你内心里最细的想法,最深的感动,最真心的话语.

我梦见了你公主,回到了我们都熟悉的地方。就连梦里,我都感觉得到它真的太像个梦了。见到你的微笑,我仿佛满足了一生,靠近你,我什么都不想说,因为分分秒秒我都要好好记的。终于到了那一天,我等待的那一天。

我忘了我们谈了什么,但有一句话,是我这一辈子都不会忘记的。

''我觉得我们之间都有感觉了,然而远距离爱情能靠吗?"

在我想告诉你说我能时,我停了,回答,似乎很难。下一秒钟你不见了,就如雨后的彩虹,使人感叹于你短暂的故事.

接着我跑了,跑到了连我都不知的地方,因为我不想回头再看了......

梦就这样完了.

起身后,看着这片新的家,我不尽的想到,当初做对了吗?

Chances

Hiiiiiiiii guys, finally it's the holidays over here in Perth, have been waiting for this day for a gruesome week, a week that seemed longer than any other week of the term, but it'll all over and it's holiday time here !!!!!!!!!!

Hehe, first moment of my holidays should be granted 1 wish, Chilliz (A fast food restaurant with uber cheap prices for relevantly worth it food), been taking so much fast food this week, still nt sure whether my body says yes to that >< But let's leave all that to the holidays. xD

As i was munching my way down in Chilliz with my bbq chicken rice, i stumbled across a lil tiny problem, there were these black black lil parts on the chicken i had, so i was thinking whether i should go all the trouble to remove these cancer-causing thingies, or just go ahead in enjoying my meal?

My lil brain said this :
Since cancer doesn't give you a chance, why would you give it one?

I guess my lil brain made sense, things like this can happen only once, and only once then it's all gone. This is where the movies are actually real, when the doctor says that you'll only have 3 months left to live and then the story goes on, etc, etc......

This reminded me of something for christians, that cancer is just like sin, lil by lil does it lurk in our lives, slowly taking the chances to go into us, while we only take it as something so insignificant, yet only once, and only once that we do the wrong thing, it'll be hard to get out again. For lovers, treasure your love that you might have for now, don't even let there be a slight crack, fill it together, hand in hand with your love, before that very one time comes.

I was spending my time in dinner, picking our the black black parts, and had a better meal, even though it was not that enjoying, or was it?

Parts of life

This sounds such a hard post to write about, but somehow that phrase came to my mind all of the sudden, guess i'm living life part by part without a continuing story in the middle to fit everything into a story with a happy ending.

Somehow, after the daylight saving passed, life seemed draggy here, as in i'm just dragging on myself to live, without much to live on or live to, everyday passes like that, every test passes like that and things aren't much bright *opens the window*

I treated myself to KFC yesterday, but it felt like munching instead of actually enjoying food for a long time. Seeing lil kids run around and enjoying the lil pieces of french fries that they had, made me wonder where is my lil kid, tucked somewhere far far in my mind, or is being an adult just so boring. Spent like 10 aussies for 2 hours of rest and wandering around, trying to find where did i left myself.

Mornings would seem all fine and jolly, till some where, whether it's getting serious for tests or just moody for my test results, am i that hard to satisfy? Well, i know something, and that is something has to be done, maybe a long hibernation, a long vacation away from studies, a stroll on the beach with my favorite song on, or just one day, lying in bed and slacking time off, oh, do i miss slacking back at home ><

Holidays are coming soon, my tests are all finished, and finally, some rest, something that is finally almost equivalent to home. I'll be growing fat this holiday, being fat is enjoying, and satisfying, back right to the spot that i started, Perth.

不一样

- 不一样
作词 :罗健明
作曲 :李桂盈

清晨 天未亮 睁开眼 轻轻打开心窗
和你说话 像知己一样自然
爱你一切变简单 我学会平凡 单单仰望
有了期盼做我的力量 向你无际扩张 心终于可以靠岸

你带我 远离迷惘 远离试探 有你大手牵伴 我有更肯定步伐
你给我 借个肩膀 温暖心房 在你翼下飞翔 让我变得不一样

夜央 天已凉 闭上眼 回想一天片段
完全卸下 所有的疲劳失望
爱你一切变得简单 我学会释然 纯心仰望
感觉低潮时光的重担 只要开口呼吸 心里就会有力量

*爱你一切变简单 我学会平凡 单单仰望* =3=3
大家加油了哦 ^^

你带我 远离混乱 远离试探 有你解我心伤 我不怕放声哭喊
你带我 借个肩膀 温暖心房 你是那么浪漫 让我爱得不一样

天使敬拜团

大家最近还好吗? 其实在这里还真的有点的孤单, 想念着我们一起敬拜的感觉, 家里的感觉.
昨晚我做了好好的梦哦, 想自己回到了大家哪里, 和大家一起唱歌, 看见每个人都长大了, 都很有信心的在台上领敬拜, 而我终于在下面支持大家的了呀.
可能想大家太多了吧, 是呀, 是很向你们哦...
要去上学了, 今天又有东东慢慢想了... ^^
加油了, 大家 =3