你最近还好吗?

一路以我来都不觉得一个人有什么的孤单,

一个人可以霸占自己喜欢的,

可以不顾任何人, 尽情地笑, 尽情地哭.

曾几何时，

你闯进了我的生活,

教了我 有人陪伴多好,

你教了我, 一个人会很空虚, 很寂寞;

让我打开心门, 有人依赖, 有人分享, 有人陪伴.

后来你默默地离开,

我左看右看, 只看到我自己.

没有晴天, 没有味道, 没有你.

我也渐渐爱上了雨天,

因为听见雨声哭得比我更用力,

是我剩下最后一种的安慰.

现在,

我终于习惯了寂寞;

只是每当夜深人静时,

我满脑子想的,

都是我们的当初.

大方.爱情.不属于你的一切.

今天刚刚考完第一张考试纸, 就让我来这里消遣消遣时间吧, 过一下就应该回去读书了.

最近, 有人告诉我说我做人真的很小气, 提醒了我做人真的要大气, 大方点. 真的想起来, 作的大方点, 男人才能成就大事, 才能容忍, 才能出人头地.

所以, 别觉得我无事不登三宝殿, 我也只想慢慢培养好习惯罢了. 并没有什么企图.

渐渐也觉得自己年纪不再小了, 不该在像小孩子一样. 者的要为自己的未来打算, 前进, 迈步.

许多人都很害怕面对未来. 其实不是未来让人恐惧, 而是未知数中让人的忐忑.

近来也开始讨厌寂寞, 讨厌深夜里房间空旷的回音, 脑海反反复复的动个不停. 有人曾经告诉我, 他可以习惯寂寞, 当初我真的不能领悟怎么有人能习惯寂寞, 但我想, 不是习惯, 只是麻木了.

但是没人陪也不是第一次呀, 老早就知道这点了. (朋友, 放心吧, 我知道你有你的伴侣需要陪伴, 如果你忽略了他, 我会更恨自己的)

说到这点, 才记得我也跟你说过我懊恼, stress的时候会去买买东西消除烦恼. 放心, 感觉我也过了这个时段. 可是真的是花了很多钱.

有时我也希望能有个人陪伴, 或许时间不对, 或许人不对, 或你还没感觉到, 但有时我真的希望你能让我快点出现, 因为我等的很累. 不想最后只因为想找人陪伴而滥竽充数.

多9天就要回家了. 如果我能告诉你我有多期待, 多渴望那天的来临, 那么我在说谎, 因为连我自己也无法预测到第自己有多么想回家. 徘徊在两国的同时, 我真的很久没有家的感觉了, 更久都没有回家了.

今天, 我在想, 不属于我的一切, 我需要感到惋惜吗? 不拥有, 又怎能失去?

但我想, 我真的很用心, 很放心思, 很耐心, 却换不回你的注意, 换不回你的珍惜.

到最后发现, 如果我不是心甘情愿的付出, 那么这一切都只是空的.

__________

你再大方, 也能眼真真看着不曾属于你的爱情慢慢离开你的手心, 落入别人的心里吗?

人生何尝不是场奋斗?

流了血, 流了泪,

为了让自己出人头地,

为了成为家人和自己的骄傲,

为了未来而发光.

这一切, 又怎么会不值得呢?

如果有一天,

我说我能明白你的心意,
那我在说谎,
你们永远都为我想前一步.

我说我能了解你们的为难,
那我在说谎,
为了我, 你们从不觉得为难.

我不再有人陪伴, 有人疼爱,
那我在说谎,
你们无止尽的爱,
或许等到我为人父母时才会明白.

如果有一天,
我能再回到你们的身边,
五六月能卖花, 下厨, 给你们深情的拥抱,
那该有多好.

或许以后,
真的能有那么一天 (:

现在, 只能在这里谢谢你们,
用心良苦的栽培我, 疼爱我,
让我觉得永远有家可以回.

祝爹地妈咪，
孝亲节快乐. (:(:

要条件, 要感觉?

最后, 还是决定不写了.

难得回来

难得今晚会在这里打部落格. 其实是上个礼拜下来都很想写了, 只是说都很忙, 加上补充睡眠.

但今晚没什么睡意, 所以来打打部落格, 希望等下睡得下吧.

还记得拜四那天把assignment做完了, 所以心情特别的好, 就一个人下了city去用餐. 想着想着, 最近都因为出去吃的关系而花了不少的钱, 所以还是找便宜的东西吃吧.

走着走着就到了chilliz, 一间曾经以学生为主的鸡饭店, 以挂了名的廉价让学生们也能吃的饱.

就排好队, 买了一成不变的饭盒, 找到了个地方用食.

开起来后, 看着热喷喷的饭, 搭着的鸡肉块, 真的有点吃不下饭.

这样的感觉, 真的很熟悉, 熟悉到两年前, 当初刚刚到了澳洲读书时, 抱着的那种冲动, 那种试探的感觉. 一直是乘三的想法, 凡事都尽量省到不能再省。

就是这件店, 陪伴了我. 每一次大家选择去吃, 我就肯定到这间店报到, 因为真的很不错, 且便宜. 当时的想法简单的很, 也都没有考虑那么多.

现在呢? 感觉真的变了一个人, 会努力的想去找好吃的东西吃, 再也没有乘三的想法, 东西都要好的.

反省着自己这两年下来真的变了很多吗?

只能说每一天都在学着, 怎样面对每一件不一样的事情, 不一样的人. 更好, 更坏. 应该说是更好. 日子久了, 也更清楚什么重要, 谁重要.

这个礼拜应该会回去感觉下回忆. 真的也该睡了, 晚安了大家!

法啦啦啦啦

也不知道自己要写什么就上来, 真的很不是我的想法, 但来了就索性多写点东西吧.

最近真的没什么跟家人好好聊天, 自己感觉有点距离, 很不是滋味.

虽然工作时间很长, 遇到的人有时凶凶, 有时又好好的。 但是一直很感谢有这份工作, 能赚点钱帮帮父母.

上个'post'本来想说“真的很感谢", 才记得以前有人说过 "我们又没有不相信你!”

这个礼拜最清楚的一件事 - 美好的回忆, 似乎都是不能回去的回忆, 所以活好今天, 创造多点值得记起的事.

Bla bla, 这两个礼拜有mid-sem和assignment酱, 没办法咯!

就这样吧, 真的得睡了 xD 晚安了大家!


看起来越无情的人, 其实越怕被伤害.

Work work.

Just a quick blog about interesting stuffs at work!

- Scene 1-

Oliver : *telling myself* Yes yes yes yes, i'm gonna wrap this final pack of bun and go out to place these buns out!

*placing buns = super awesome break from constantly wrapping bread*

*Boss comes in*

Boss : Hey there Ollie, let me help you go put these buns out.

Ollie : T.T Okay....


- Scene 2 -
This is shopping to a new level!

Employee A : Here Ollie, this is how you mark down stuffs, well, basically stuffs that are going to go soon....

*Ollie nods*

*Ollie looks around still trying to grasp the concept of marking down*

*Customer A approaches*

Customer A : Hi there, hi hi hi hi! I was wondering if you're going to mark this down? You see, this stuff is going to expire is 2 days, since you're not opening on sunday and monday, it'll be expired by then, so you're definitely gonna mark it down right? Better than all those expired cakes that you had to throw away right, right right?

Ollie : *speechless* ... I'm gonna go ask my boss first.

[ 20 minutes after Customer A gets her mark down]

*Customer A runs back*

Customer A : HAVE YOU SEEN MY MARKDOWN ITEM? *Roar* Someone just reached into my trolley and HELPED themselves with some stuff that i got! *ROAR* I'm gonna go to the counter to wait for him/her to show up with my stuff, and give them a piece of my mind!

Ollie : *speechless* *nods*
Boss : Yeah, they really shouldn't do that...

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And yes, those are stuffs that are happening around work :P Time flies when you're working, but being able to think about stuffs that i don't usually do, while automatically wrapping bread, feels kinda good.

P.S. - It's possible to sit in hungry jacks and get free wifi from Maccas right beside!

Back to sleep, check ya next time!

无题.

说好要把从前好好收起来, 如今却有踏不出它的形影.
说好要把握现在努力向前, 而却没有踏出第一步的勇气.
说好要分不顾危险的闯过危机, 却被自己的三思而捆绑着;
说好要为自己而活, 但又那么介意别人的看法;

那么多的决定, 那么多想尝试, 却没有真正的实现.









突然觉得, 自己好像个大骗子....

Sort sort sort.

You give me the simplest and easiest smiles (:

P.S. - Short updates until i get back into the mood of writing longerrrrrrrrrrrrr blog posts :P

Sometimes i wonder

is there really a fine cut?

Time to get back

to heaps of stuffs.
to uni.
to life
to lesser weight
to cooking for myself again... (laundry+cleaning+taking care of myself)
to being around heaps of young ppl in youth and uni
to trying to meet a lot of ppl
to being the best i can be
to Perth (did i mention :P)
to missing my family from a place far abroad
to life

and back to You.

Today

I woke up at 6.30am seeing this to start my day with!

and later on this (:

Bath bath, and then had to start changing for class

After much choosing, i decided to wear my purple shirt,

and my casual, faithful blue jeans,

and a black jacket right before winter fully ends.

finally my pair of white shoes and we're almost all ready!

Last but not least, with my trusty backpack we departed to start the day off :D

Bus, train and bus with Transperth!!

it started off like this as i started to wait for the bus

then i waited for bubble buddy for too long,

But i met Liz, Jason, Yii kuok in the process of waiting,

and finally when bubble buddy came!

We reached University of Western Australia, *ahem* *the grandpa uni in WA*

on the class, the scenery was beautiful,

there was life all around uni,

made me wish i could get my wedding in UWA,

*just a nice photo i had to put somewhere in my blog*

I reached class for lecture,

in lectures we learn about stuff like,

but i was bored, so it was playing with phone camera time!

Oh well, lecture ended anyway (:

Then when thinking about what to eat, i could've had this at uni,

but i felt like this :P

thus taka was what i had for lunch.

I went for a haircut

*photo omitted due to the existence of a shaver in the process*

and reached home safely (:

and i lived happily ever after!!

Retreat in 1 day :D

A Mandurah we will go!!

1 more day till retreat in Mandurah, gonna have heaps of fun with everyone :P

Pray for us that we get a lot of discussion done, fellowship, fun and heaps of talks :D

Till we're back, take care everyone!

- Ollie

With everything.

♬ Darkness tremble in Your Holy Light... Great and mighty to be... ♬

- With everything, Hillsongs.

Today's a seemingly great day =P Though it rained a bit, the sun still shined nicely right after, and everything looked a lot fresher.

The last two lines took like an hour to type cause i was stuck playing with my digital cam, and found out that there are quite a lot of functions that i can use. Might sound a bit lol, but yes, it's like updating myself with technology :P

Retreat this friday :D:D:D It's gonna be heaps of fun having 20+ people all go camp somewhere in Mandurah =P

And to Rega, if you're reading my blog,

Come online pwees, it's been so longgggggggg since we last talk.

只有雨天, 我才能看见彩虹

For as long as i can remember.

Pardon guys for not updating for such a long while. Things have been dull with so much work in uni and stuff happening in life, but oh well, most importantly is that i'm back here again (:

Gonna skip through all those stuffs that i missed blogging for the past 2 months, well, mainly just the SIFE competition in Sydney, other than that my life has been quite boring (not blogging-worthy atleast)

Recently,

I have been a bit hooked up to Mousehunt (don't google it unless you're ready)

I feels more like a commerce student this semester with 4 commerce units and 1 law unit

I'm not ready for my 5 finals at the end of the year

I realized that Korean RnB is quite good actually

I went to MSU wonka ball and had a fun night

I am heading back Malaysia in 1 month and 1 week's time

I play with Jonathan's ipod touch a lot since he got it

I love going to the swings with my ipod on breezy evenings

I lost the "n" button on my laptop

I broke my Canning College Transperth card

I meet Demetria, Wen, Alvin, Edward and Jonathan a lot in uni these days

I once thought why didn't i study engineering in the first place

I am enjoying disciple more and more

I hope that 3 can provide free facebook forever

I feel like being home right now

All i can think of at the moment, hope that i can keep this blog alive longer this time =) Sorry if i deleted your link in my blog, changed the template and lost most of my links. Do leave me a msg after this post for me to relink you. Please and thank you.

Ollie

当我发现它只能是场梦.

SIFE competition in Sydney - photos!

I'm back :D

Well, if you haven't noticed, i haven't been blogging around much during the holis *dashes around to avoid stuff thrown at me*, but here i'm back, and this proves that my holis are super holis! :D

Okie, today's the first day of uni, and i got to meet everyone back in Uni! :) Might sound a bit weird that uni's appealing for somehow, but indeed the feeling of still being able to study another semester at UWA lightens the spirit up, well, for now that its xD

I'm going to try and update the major thingos that happened in my holis, besides sleep, eat and heaps of dramas that is =P

1) Mommy came to visit!!!

- Can't believe that mommy came to visit me throughout the holis, typing this out still makes me homesick much ><

2) Trip to Sydney with SIFE UWA!

- Way awesome xD and we smell of "SIFE NATIONAL CHAMPIONS" :P, quoted from Jackie =P

Okie, so here goes mommy's trip to Perth!

*Arranging pictures around blogspot is a pain @@*

- So here's mommy and Aunty Shierly, just arriving off Perth International Airport. Just an advice, your first sights you see once you're out of PIA doesn't reflect Perth in most ways, it made Perth look like an outback place full of cowboys and farmers, not that it isn't a good thing itself =P

- After that, Aaron kor picked us up and we were going to stay at his place for the ten days that mom was here in Perth. The house was SUPERB! Way better than any hotel that we were eyeing on. This picture was the first meal we had together in Perth, cooked by non other than *drum..... rolllll........* Aaron kor! Can't be thankful enough to him for all the time spent with us in Perth!

- We went to visit UWA the next day! *of course* and showed mommy around uni, and we both thought that UWA felt like a zoo, with the parrots, peacocks, ducks and birds around, but isn't that the reason we went there? xD

- This photo was my must take! *Don't mind the messy hair, and weird smile*, but it's something that we both take pride in =]

- This isn't a great picture, but if you can tell from it, it's the business school in UWA, nicely designed and engineered building, but a tiny bit too far (very far if you have to run there in 15 minutes). Mom agrees too after she had to walk all the way down to the business school and back.

- After UWA, we went to my home in Perth, but first, Pastor's house! Mommy was delighted that all the international students have such a great dad and mom to take care and look out for us here in Perth!

- Here's mommy with Uncle Peter and Aunty Christina! Mom's so happy that i got into homestay this year, having a family around me at all time.

- Below will be the little highlights of our run around Perth, in no specific order.

- This is us around Perth City! The multiple number of pictures that we have is due to the repetitive number of visits around city =P There can never be and ending when it comes to shopping :P

*Looking beyond the horizon (for the squinting)*
- Mom still remembers Cottesloe beach from her first visit last year, so we had to visit it once again. The same beautiful beach, but the only slight difference was that winter kicked in, so practically no one was at the beach. Nonetheless, it didn't fail to dazzle us still!

- I'm really lazy to post a lot of pictures, so you'll have to be observant xD If you can notice the white bars at the background, you'll be able to recognize that it's the ferris wheel that we have in Perth! :D It has been quite long since i went on one, but it's a great way to see Perth!

- Here's us on the boat to Freo from the bell tower. Was suppose to head to rottnest, but the gushing waves cancelled our plans. It was a nice trip, being able to see the coastline from Perth all the way to Freo.

- Here's us at Freo! Notice the weird facial expressions due the winds blowing at 123912051023 kmph, something new for mom and Aunty Shierly to experience :P

- How could you miss Cicerellos when you're at freo? Personally recommendable that you try out the burger there, it's a whole new level compared to any fast food burger that you can find!

- This is the visit to the vineyard in swan valley (i think), and we had an amazing time there, overviewing a scenery of seemingly endless grape trees, while sipping wine. A place that is so refreshing and soothing to be in.

- This is the place where dreams come true for little kids :D The chocolate factory somewhere near the vineyard. Definitely a visit to relive your childhood fantasy with all the kinds of chocolate they have there. If you feel like viewing more pictures for the last two places, do visit my first blog post or so, pics should be there =P

- King's Park! Though we didn't see a king there xD Again, a great place to escape from the city to give yourself a break, splendid views and a great place for romantic dates! :P

- Here we are at Hillarys Boat Harbour, a place that even i haven't visit until mom came. A nice hangout place around the seaside for people during the weekends.

- In backward sequences, we had lunch together after church before going to AQWA, and again a first! :P I've heard of it a few times, but this was the first time i actually went and visited the place. Wonderful place to see exotic aquatic animals and beautiful corals that can be found around Australia!

Well, this summarizes mommy's trip to Perth, and i'm really looking forward to heading back home at the end of the year to meet daddy and bi!