Me, myself and I

Weird isn't it a topic like this, first thought of writing something again in Chinese, yet i thought of jono and melly again, so this time it's an english post..

Something is going on inside me right now, not sure whether it is the over-slacking (barely possible), homesick, sieness, or just plain having too much hormones, but i know something isn't all that right now with me, can't see my own smile on my face, can't feel the sun shinning to brighten my day, can't jolly myself over nice food to eat, and i can't now feel whatever people are feeling with my heart.

I can now, however, catch myself stuck dazing at the rain, lingering around the same emotional song for one night, doing nothing, being lazy to blog, lose my enthusiasm towards going anywhere but home.

All these syndromes, point to the one thing that seems all that blur in my mind. I miss the my shelter back in Miri, where i can have a song on, tuck myself in bed, and doze off reading books while enjoying my night. That time has passed and it definitely passed too swiftly.

My lil desperate mind is telling me that it's too much about me, myself and I, when i lost focus on the one thing that i should be grabbing in my life, my Lord, my Shepard, which when i try so hard, i get hurled back by the world once again.

It's raining now, just like how my heart has been for so long.